Paper Bag - Fiona Apple

I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star
To pray on, or wish on, or something like that
I was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew, was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment that my chances
Were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near, so did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag

Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love

And I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay, wouldn't put his lips to mine,
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said, 'Honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void,' he said
'It's all in your head,' and I said, 'So's everything'
But he didn't get it I thought he was a man
But he was just a little boy

Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love

                                                  
Citat! ^^

Of course it's hard. If it was easy then everybody would do it. Its the hard that makes it great.
"I am your butter and your bread. The voice that's in your head. I'll take you in and fill you up with a lack of being fed" -Ana
An ordinary girl, an ordinary waist but ordinary's just not good enough today
Amazingly enough, we all live inside a body that is capable of improvement everyday...what are you waiting for?
Thin has a taste all its own
I do eat: only what is needed for . I can't help it that we live in a piggish society where gluttony is the norn, and everyone else is constantly stuffing themselves.
Ask me to show you perfect and I will show you a thin person.

Vill du ha nått långt å hårt i munnen?

Då får du gå och köpa en skruven isglass. ;)

I want to have control. I want a perfect body, I want a Perfect soul...
...I don't care if it hurts!
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I can't eat the food in front of me
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Its all i ever wanted, to be perfect...
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Fuck food!

l o v e < 3

spande lite på Youtube och hitta lite klipp. ^^

jaa som sagt .. ja åt ju idag o har inte fått ångest eller ens velat spy över de så är faktiskt rätt glad :)

wiee.

<3

Dagens frukost: En macka med smör, ost och gurka på och en macka med ost och smör på.

Dagens lunch: Ingen.

Dagens mellanmål: ingenting.

Dagens middag: En schnitzel, potatis och beanässås, me ost o morötter till..

Dagens kvällsmat: Det blev middagen..

Dagens onyttiga: Fyra glas cocacola..

Dagens plus: Gick en liten promenad som kan förbränt max 40 kcal..

ja känner mig lite duktig faktiskt.. ja åt en hel del idag. ovanligt mkt för att vara mig.

igentligen var aj hos syrran hela helgen så kunde liksom inte sitta o räkna ut kcal osv vilket iof var rätt bra att ja kunde äta massa utan att tänka på de. men för att ja inte skulle äta alldeles för mycket innan ja e van vid att inte svälta mig hela dagarna med ett mål om dan så åt ja inget godiis. o ja var ute med hunden med men absolut inte förbränt mer än va ja stoppat i mig e e ja rätt säker påå..

ja ska börja äta igeen.. ja ska blid en där smala tjejen men ja har beslutat mig för att göra det sundare än att svälta mig.. men ja vet inteo m ja klarar de.. de e tufft som faan..